Impossible to Replace the Irreplaceable

I have been thinking about this post all day. Trying to work out what to write, what not to write and how much I can even handle to write. In my last post, I referred briefly to some troubling times lately and whilst Milo has been a bit of a handful, those troubles were actually not to do with him. Once again 'Workingberlinmum' is single and is in the very early stages of working on repairing a broken heart. I won't go in to detail for the sake of 'The Englander' (it is always my vow that whilst I choose to write this blog, those around me haven't and therefore I don't go in to personal matters of others without their blessing) but will simply say that I am devastated by how things now have to be and I plan on keeping my heart to myself and to Milo for a long time. It's impossible to replace the irreplaceable.

I am pushing myself to not delve into despair and to keep my head high for the sake of both Milo and my sanity and so I am pushing through in the only way I know how right now in that I am delving head first in to my work. Luckily for me, my work is really moving forward now and both shops are selling at a good rate and I am receiving some wonderful reviews for my jewellery. I have so many plans for the coming year, it's just a shame that they won't be shared in a way that I had envisaged.
Christmas is going to feel lonely with a large whole in the shape of 'The Englander' who was supposed to join Milo, my family and myself this year (tears fill my eyes as I write this! Dagnamit!) and New Years! Well, it seems that it may well just be a sleeping Milo and I for that too.

I am going to do my best to keep positive though. I am going to work hard on building up friendships (my previous friendships from pregnancy and Milo's first year have almost all disintegrated into mere distant memories) and I am going to work on getting my jewellery in to shops and am even looking in to the possibility of opening my own bricks and mortar shop (which would be a dream if possible!).

That'll keep me busy for now. I just have to get used to these quiet, solo nights again. That'll take a while.

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